Sometimes I ramble…so for those not really interested, I apologize in advance. But I’ve spent the last week contemplating the future…again. On a very serious, and very personal note, I had a mammogram call back – every woman’s fear. I’ve had it once before – in 2014, so to be back in that place again emotionally was gut wrenching for sure. I didn’t share this with many people (then or now) – only a select few knew it was happening again, but as you all know – these things don’t resolve quickly. Waiting for the process – the second test, the doctor’s opinions – the options…then the waiting again for the appointment that will, most likely, only make you wait again. So from the first appointment, to the resulting last appointment, I had a week to contemplate the future.
I consider myself a faithful person, but I’m not the most by any means. I believe in God, and/or a higher power in some form – and I do believe he is in control of most things. Our actions are not necessarily controlled by him (in my belief), but I believe there is a plan to the universe. I cling to this at times – some times more than others. Last week I was clinging by a thread, for sure. I never “advertise” my faith – but not because I’m not faithful – just because it’s mine alone. I have some incredibly faithful friends (you know who you are) and also some who don’t believe at all. I love you all the same!
To summarize, I’m fine. And the point was not to draw sympathy from you – but to bring to light that having this happen does make one think twice about so many things – and to see things in such a different light once you make it to the “other side”. I am fortunate, my scary experience ended well, and quickly. I had a wonderful doctor, and a fantastic imaging center. And although this wasn’t my first rodeo of this sort, the emotions were the same – and the relief even more pronounced I think. Because I was given the all clear again – that’s twice in my lifetime, and I can’t explain to those that have never experienced being brought all the way to the edge, how incredible the pull back feels!
It is a renewal of sorts. And maybe I needed that once again. To remind me of the important things, and to give me even more passion for life- my family, and all the blessings I have.
So thanks for reading my ramblings…and thank YOU for being a part of my life – be it personal or business, I have so many things to be thankful for – and the support of family and friends is one of the most important to me.